"Some of you out there has made some decisions recently to leave somebody that you love, thought loved you, thinks still loves you, and you still can't find a way to work it out. And if you done it three days ago then you're still on the straight and now. But if you done it three weeks ago, it's getting tough. It's getting tough to hold on 'cause those dreams are coming in, yeah. Things happen you want to tell the other person about, you know what I'm talking about? Yeah, then you start getting dreams where they're cool. You wake up like 'Oh, I think they're actually cool.' Nah, that's just dreams messing with you, all right. So, a lot of people here are trying to stick to their guns. But it's getting harder and harder not to write back. 'Cause when you resist, they persist. That's just how it goes, right? But I'm here to tell you that you're not psychotic. You are not crazy, you're just lonely, and loneliness is a hell of a drug. Loneliness is a hell of a drug. So I'm here to take over your brain for a moment if that's how you actually feel and remind you; do NOT have contact. Do not have contact, I don't care how lonely you get. Loneliness is part of it, right? You'll be lonely, but I know you'll be OK. 'Cause good love is on the way. So when that blackberry goes off, or that iPhone goes 'brrrfff brrrffff' and it is who you think it is; turn it over and go back to bed, and sing yourself a little lullaby."

 -John Mayer

Self-Awakening

I've come to a point where I think it's time to move on. I have given my all. I loved with all that I had and enjoyed every second I ever spent with you. But it's time I find the closure I need.

I've done things in life that I will never regret. We shared memories that no one in this world can ever replace. I have no regrets with the memories we have shared. You will always have a piece of my heart and I know I will have a piece of yours too.

Who knows what the future holds. Who knows if we will ever have that beach house with kids and pets. Who knows if we will never see each other again. Who knows if we'll become the best of friends. We don't know. But what I do know is that if you have moved on, then so can I.

I'm not going to let the past control my present. I have to keep moving forward and keep living my life. I have to keep myself focused on my dreams and my goals.

Thank you for loving me and showing me how two people can care so much for each other. Thank you for being my first love.

But I need to get my life together so I can be the best person that I can be. I love you but I need to do my own thing now because I love myself more.