If You Really Loved Her

If you really loved her, you wouldn't let her hanging around.

If you really loved her, you wouldn't keep her up all night thinking where she went wrong that you were so mad at her you didn't even want to talk to her.

If you really loved her, you wouldn't leave her in confusion.

If you really loved her, you wouldn't make her doubt your love.

If you really loved her, you wouldn't intentionally avoid her call.

If you really loved her, you wouldn't give up on her. THAT fast.

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But you didn't really love her, did you?

You didn't return her call(s).

You didn't fight for her even after she did for you.

So you didn't really love her.
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Because if you did, you wouldn't have had done the things I mentioned above.

Bel? Kok? Bel? :*

Kenalin, namanya Bella Budi Lestari. Biasa dipanggil Bella. Lahirnya tanggal 15 April 1995 di rumah sakit yang punya nama hampir sama kayak namanya, yakni Rumah Sakit Budi Lestari. (If you're asking why on earth her parents were 'too creative' to give a name to their very first child, believe me, I did too.) Untungnya Twilight belum heboh waktu itu, jadi nama 'Bella' pasti murni hasil pemikiran orangtuanya. Eh, bisa jadi 'Bella' itu nama suster atau dokternya sih. HAHAHAHA! Lol :P Uniknya, hal tentang orangtuanya itu gak berlaku sama sekali ke anak sulung dari tiga bersaudara yang satu ini. Iya, doi anaknya kreatif abis. Artsy cell runs in her blood, kalau boleh diumpamakan. Gak paham lagi dah sama imajinasinya, mungkin doi sering nge-gaul bareng Spongebob dan Patrick.

Sekedar flashback, pertama kali kenalan sama Bella itu di angkot pas mau daftar ulang SMA. Singkatnya, baru sekelas sama doi pas kelas XII ini. Dan langsunglah jadi chairmate. :D

FYI, Bella ini pelajar yang punya sejuta kesibukan di luar duduk manis mantengin pelajarin di kelas. OSIS lah, FKOJT lah, belum lagi ekskul mading yg diketuainya, project buku tahunan (which as you know; time-consuming banget), ini itu macem-macem kayak nano-nano. Gw pun jadi sering duduk sendiri karena ditinggalin doi. Demen banget doodling anaknya. Bikin doodles nama anak-anak kelas, free of charge; checked. Bantuin temen-temen bikin kado-kado anniversary atau ulangtahun gitu; checked triple times. Entah ramuan apa dari orang pinter mana yang dia minum sampe dia, by far, gak pernah ngeluh berlebihan.

Cewek yang suka buwanget sama group band Mocca ini gak jarang bikin gw amazed oleh ceritanya mengenai dunia luar. Bener-bener dikasih a whole different perspective. Beda pendapat wajar terjadi, tapi at the end of the day we're back on the same page gitu deh! haha :D

Ini cewek juga suka banget ngejutin gw. Contohnya: 1) dia dulu pernah ngasih recording ke gw puisi tentang kuda gitu, just because she pays attention enough that I LOVE horses. 2) waktu gw pernah gak masuk pas lagi try out, doi pernah sempet-sempetnya bikin ini:

I don't know what it is that makes her a 'different' chair mate, but I think everyone deserves one who is as thoughtful as her. :)

Here's to your 18th birthday, mate. To the 17-years amazing life journey you had, to every goals you have achieved along the way, to all dreams you're pursuing, and to the incredible years ahead!

Semoga sehat selalu, bahagia terus, dilancarkan segala urusannya, makin dewasa, makin canggih nge-handle ini itu, dijauhi oleh useless scumbags, langgeng sama Ucupnya atau siapapun itu nantinya jodoh elo, makin bad less dah pokoknya, Bel! wkwkwkwk :P

Udah beberapa minggu terakhir gw mikirin mau ngasih apa ke elo, something unique gitcuw, tapi hasilnya niil. Gw mikir kado dari gw gak akan bisa se-kreatif elo dan jatohnya bakal jadi fail gitu kan. Ya masa gw minta bikinin hand-made gift ke elo buat dikasih ke elo juga, jayus kan. Jadi, soridoristoberi bgt nih Bel gw gak bisa ngasih sesuatu se-kreatif kayak yang suka lo bikin ke orang-orang. Cuman tulisan ecek-ecek ini yang bisa gw kasih ke elo. Tapi harus lo tau gw bikinnya dengan sepenuh cintaaa. :3

Selamat Mengulang Tahun yang Ke-18, Bella Budi Lestari. :*

P.S: THANK YOU FOR BEING AN ASTOUNDING FRIEND OF MINE!

Love, Afia.

Channing Matthew Tatum

I know the first words that came to your mind when you heard his name might be: "ah, that hollywood hunk.", but just let me explain a little about this gentleman I adore SO much. About how much more than a hunk he is. About how hell of a man he actually is.

Okay. So last night I watched a video of Channing Tatum's interviews about love, marriage, and his wife on YouTube. And man, I really hope that there are still men out there who love like he does.

Behold for one of the most devoted hubbies in the whole wide world...

Watch the video here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gMbexj8wZbA

In case you don't feel like watching the video, I'm going to tell you my favorite lines:

1.  Channing Tatum's Views on Love...

     "Love is conditional, I think. I mean, you find someone that you can grow with, and one that makes you want to grow and makes you a better person, really. My wife literally makes me think about being a better person every single day in some facet, you know, and in a not really killing way, in like a we're-gonna-do-it-together way."

2.   Channing Tatum was Asked For a Marital Advice...

      "The woman is always right, and happy wife, happy life."

3.   Channing Tatum was Complimented for His Acting in 'The Vow'...

     "Obviously I'm in love with my wife for about seven years now, we've been married for three, and you know, it's not that hard to act like you're in love 'cause you ARE in love."

4.   Channing Tatum on What He Cherishes The Most About Being             Married...

     "Even the small thing, I'm just saying, my wife, I don't know what it is about it, but it makes me happy. It makes me feel responsible, or older, or the thing of like having that responsibility for someone makes me feel like I've accomplished something. And that I'm worthy of someone. And I don't know, like, there's a safety in it for me that...I love that at the end of the day, no matter how much I might fail at something, that they're just gonna love me."

...aaaand now you get it. (or you still don't. and that's your bad. hehe) ;)

P.S.: From the video, what Channing tries to say to Jenna (his wife) every single day might sound cheesy, but screw cheesy! I speak for the entire woman race: those kind of words are exactly the words we would love to hear from our husband every, friggin, day. Period.

Sevone 5th: Back To Nineties

Jadi, tanggal 14 Juli 2012 kemaren, sekolah gw SMAN 71 Jakarta ngadain pentas seni. Dan 3 minggu sebelumnya, kita ngadain Sevone Cup gitu. Kebetulan, gw masuk kepanitiaan dalam dua acara itu. Terlibat dalam kepanitiaan suatu acara sekolah kayak gitu itu..was time-and-energy-consuming, but super fun though.

Gw sangat merindukan being a part of an organization seperti waktu SMP dulu. Sekarang, di SMA gw bukan anggota osis, jadi waktu pas open recruitment panitia pensi, I gave it a shot.

Komitmen dalam suatu event mengharuskan kita buat bagi waktu sebaik mungkin, which is lumayan susah buat pelajar SMA kayak kita. Belum lagi nyatuin kepala antar panitia yang juga mengharuskan kita buat ngatur emosi yang bener. Emang engga gampang pas ngejalaninnya, tapi yakin banget suatu saat nanti kita bakal kangen berat dateng ke sekolah jam 6 pagi selama beberapa hari yang kalau telat didenda seribu rupiah per menit, kangen rapat evalnya, mondar-mandir sana sini, kejemur di lapangan sampe gosong, dan masih banyak lagi.

Terlepas dari semua kekurangan yang ada, pada akhirnya SEVONE 5th tercapai sudah. Terima kasih banyak untuk semua panitia yang udah bekerjasama dengan sangat baik, terutama untuk anak-anak Sie. Acara :D Semoga Sevone selanjutnya dan seterusnya akan lebih sukses lagi. Aamiin ya robbal 'alamiin!

Last but not least, terimakasih banyak juga buat kalian-kalian yang udah dateng ke acara kami! Ditunggu kedatangan selanjutnya di event berikutnya! :D

WHAT AN EXPERIENCE. :)

A Lesson From A Moon

I love moon. I love staring at it. Heck, I love the whole component of sky. The stars, sun, clouds, galaxies, planets, everything. They always amaze me.

Full-moon is my favorite. And tonight, it appeared. So beautifully.

As I sit here, being thankful for the beautiful combination of tonight's sky, I learned something.

I learned that:

Some Things Are Meant To Be Enjoyed From The Distance.

Yep. As we can see from here, from the ground of the earth, moon is this one of God's most lovely creation. But, unfortunately, if we can see closer, all we can see is that hideous surface of the moon. That giant, grey, dusty, and boring view to see. Let's take a look.

Now, what do you think of moon after all? I bet you don't say "it's beautiful" anymore. If you ask why do all this time we think it's beautiful, here is why. Because, we see it from the distance. Because, Moon has the Sun to make itself look good. I'm saying, that: everything you find it beautiful, can be just a mirage*. You think it's flawless, but actually it isn't.

In other words, it's not necessary to have or own something/someone that you find attractive. As long as we can enjoy those things from a distance, why bother running after them so hard that you would only get yourself disappointed in the end?

Yes, just like the moon. I don't have to own the Moon. Because for me, it's enough just to simply stare at it and keep admiring it from the distance. :)

(*mirage: fatamorgana)