Happy Birthday, My Go-To Guy!

"The only time you truly become an adult is when you finally forgive your parents for being just as flawed as everyone else."

This quote gets me. I mean, I don't know about you, but I have reached that point where I thought that this quote: "A father is the only guy who will never break your heart" is another form of what we'd like to call 'bullshit'. I have reached that point where I swore to myself that I would NEVER forgive my Dad for whatever he had done to me and my family. Yes, I hated him THAT much. 

As I grew older, I realised that I can never truly hate my parents. Because you see, they are ALWAYS gonna be there. No, matter, what.

Selamat ulangtahun yang ke-52, Bapakku yang paling galak. Bapakku yang paling ganteng di rumah. Bapakku yang gak kesampean punya anak laki-laki yang bisa mainin alat band di rumah. Bapakku yang mau aja nurutin (hampir semua) kemauan anaknya yang paling banyak mau ini. Bapakku yang dulu kalau gue jatoh pasti dimarahin dulu baru diobatin. Bapakku yang gasuka kalau anak-anaknya jajan sembarangan tapi kalau udah terlanjur tetep aja dibiarin walau sambil ngedumel. Bapakku yang gak pernah ngebolehin gue potong rambut pendek (entah kenapa).

As much as I hate to admit it, I see a lot of myself in you. Hahaha. Semoga semua anak-anak Bapak sempet bikin Bapak bangga, ya. :')

Thank you for showing me what it means to support someone unconditionally even when they haven't been entirely honest with you. And how everybody needs somebody to be inspired by. Somebody who sets the bar really high. Somebody who'll put someone else's needs before their own and not resent them for it. Somebody who always expects you to do the right thing and then forgives you when you don't.

Oh, by the way, there is this Taylor Swift's song I love so much that always succeeds to make me cry every time I listen to it 'cause it just reminds me of my Father.

"The Best Day"

I'm five years old

It's getting cold

I've got my big coat on

I hear your laugh

And look up smiling at you

I run and run

Past the pumpkin patch

And the tractor rides

Look now -- the sky is gold

I hug your legs and fall asleep

On the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall

I know you're not scared of anything at all

Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away

But I know I had the best day

With you today

I'm thirteen now

And don't know how my friends

Could be so mean

I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys

And we drive and drive

Until we've found a town

Far enough away

And we talk and window-shop

Until I've forgotten all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to

Now at school

I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you

Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay

But I know I had the best day

With you today

I have an excellent father

His strength is making me stronger

God smiles on my little brother

Inside and out

He's better than I am

I grew up in a pretty house

And I had space to run

And I had the best days with you

There is a video

I found from back when I was three

You set up a paint set in the kitchen

And you're talking to me

It's the age of princesses and pirate ships

And the seven dwarfs

Daddy's smart

And you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

Now I know why all the trees change in the fall

I know you were on my side

Even when I was wrong

And I love you for giving me your eyes

Staying back and watching me shine

And I didn't know if you knew

So I'm taking this chance to say

That I had the best day

With you today

Shit, I already bawled my eyes out. Bye.