If Only

"He has always been a jerk and you know that. Why don't you just admit it already?"

"Because he is not."

"Why do you do this to yourself?"

"Do what?"

"This. You, still thinking that he's a decent man when it's SO clear that he's not. Not even close."

"If only you knew him. If only you got to spend some time with him. If only you ever listened to him telling you about his dreams. If only you looked into his eyes every time he talks about his favourite things and you saw that genuine look of pure joy upon his face..."

"...And if only you found yourself praying at midnight and thinking to yourself, "God, I want a son just like him."